"2004/2005

So that 1st/2nd year of marriage is supposed 2 b the "love birds" era rite?! well is wasnt like that 4 us, we had an easy start but lil did me and bryan know all those nites of talking, we really didnt know each other @ all....we went from being friends 2 being married and thinking we knew each other, 2 questioning if we did the rite thing.....

as far bak as i can remember ive always wanted 2 have a husband, sum1 2 love me unconditionally, 2 have sum1 there 2 cuddle and kiss and 2 start a family with...i mean ALWAYS that even when i played with barbies they were always married with kids.....
we got married Nov 20th 2004, well on Dec 8 2004 (his bday btw) i was babysitting Donnas (brys sister) kids and i get a phone call that bryan just got picked up and was going 2 jail, <---- things i didnt know about were starting 2 come out..he had a warrant out 4 a DUI when he was like 19, now being 25 they send him 2 jail 4 it. 2 weeks into r marriage and hes sitting in jail and im here in az, with no family of my own and hes gonna b there 4 a month! by this time im thinking what the hell am i gonna do?! r life wasnt ever easy 4 us, as u read on and u follow r stories, weve been thru alot 2gether.   
so here i am @ his moms and me and her are not getting along @ this point, because my mom is giving me the option just 2 come bak home and his moms telling me "your his wife, u stick by his side no matter what" and im thinking "yes im his wife, of 2 weeks, i thought i knew him, and now im stuck" i was seriously STUCK!  id have 2 wait 4 my mom 2 call me so i can talk 2 her and his family was acting so wierd about me even talking  2 my mom they wouldnt give me the phone when she'd call....
So i vowed 2 stay here in az and stick it thru, here was this man ive wanted 4 as long as i can remember, how could i just leave him now? he was my husband the man i swore ive loved since i figured out what love was! So i made sure i got every check that came in, i went 2 the social security changed my name so it was (says sarcastically) "Houston", and i went 2 Bank Of America 2 open an acct under both of r names so i can cash his checks. they werent gonna let me do it "cuz he had 2 b there" but i cried 2 the man starting my account and he let me sign his checks and deposit them...i had bryans car so i looked 3 an apt, filled out the apps and stayed with his sister till he got out and the day after he got home, we were moving into r own apt...and let me give u a visual, we had a 25" tv that was givin 2 us on r wedding day, his bedset he had paid 4 and i raided his moms house while she was away 4 misc other stuff we needed (while he was still on his "vaca") so we started with nothing, absolutely NOTHING! we had a lawn chair as r couch! but i made that NOTHING of an apt r home.
i had started school, which was rite around the corner from r apt, i was determined 2 help make us a life 2gether. i had the car 4 sum reason, while he was getting rides bak and forth 2 work <---lookin bak now he was so dumb 2 leave me his car, my school was seriously behind the apt, and (i didnt have my liscense) O_o so y did u leave me ur car again bryan??! ok anyways so moving on...
Feb of 2005 i wasnt feeling 2 good and i hated gettin up 2 go 2 school, i was always so tired...well me and bry had went 2 the store 2 go by some groceries and i walked up 2 the whole chickens and fell 2 the floor and cried (i knew sumthing was wrong with me) i cried becuz i couldnt remember 4 the life of me what kind of chicken my mom bought!! haha funny now but not so funny then! ;) well i knew something was wrong, bry could tell i wasnt normal and so i made an apt with a doctor 2 c if i was prego, on the way bak from the doctors i went 2 drop sum movies off @ blockbuster and i got into a huge car accident, i was merging and didnt c the diesel truck coming @ me ( I DIDNT HAVE MY LICENSE) when i glanced 2 go 2 the other lane i musta looked rite in between the stupid trucks tires! anyways nothing was wrong with the truck but bryans car was smashed 2 shit! when i got bak home i ran inside and threw the keys @ him and said i was in an accident, he went outside 2 c the car and ran back in and asked me "what the hell i did" 2 this day he thinks i did sumthing other then the real story! anyways the doc took blood and we bought a pregnancy test and sure enough i was knocked up! <-- ya i coulda just said well in feb 05 i got prego but in order 4 u 2 really understand what weve been thru i had 2 tell u i totalled the car, and it was such a loss it was taken away. so now were prego, and carless!
we hadnt signed me up 4 insurance in enough time, (we didnt know there was a time frame) so i flew out 2 cali and went 2 a womens clinic with "guess who"........YUP! my dad and jen! haha they were the 1st ones 2 ever c r lil peanut, becuz bry had 2 work he wasnt able 2 b there, but i got sum time with my dad and jen, which was actually nice now that they had excepted the fact that i was there thru the thick and thin....and the thinner! haha <-- trust me u will c....r story started off as a fairytale 2 sum, but we're normal ppl just like every1 else.

ok im gonna add 2 things 2 live'in up my story 2 personal but very truthful things, when i was 17 i found out i have sumthing called "uterine didelphys" basically means i have 2 uterus's and 2 cervix's, and the doctor who had found this had told me i wouldnt ever be able 2 have kids, i could get prego but never carry them 2 term. <---ya i showed u, u stupid doctor! haha and the 2nd im a dreamer, i dream the future, not all the time and not when i want but alot of my dreams have came tru, so i believe in the power of dreams...call me wierd whatever, we all believe in stuff rite!?
ok so bak 2 my story, im prego and we dont know the sex of the baby yet, and i have this dream: 3 kids r playing next 2 a pool and i yell out Emily, Kayla Nathan come here, and im drying them up and repremending them 4 fighting.....so thats not the ONLY time i dream of those 3 kids with those names, and in that order, Emily was always the oldest, kayla was always the 2nd and nathan was always the baby....
So sure as shit, we find out the sex of the baby and its a "GIRL" i automatically know her name is gonna b Emily.....
Emily Jane Houston 4pnds 6oz and 18 inches long

She was r joy! such a good baby, she was a premie (36 weeks) but that didnt stop her, we took her home after the 24hr rule and our lives changed 4ever!

we brought her home and we were so clueless, and she was so tiny, we didnt wanna break her! but we managed :) but im not sayyin having a new born baby was easy peasy, it was anything but! i was used 2 sleeping till i wanted 2 and doing what i wanted 2, when i wanted 2 do it...but once u have a baby AND your married, u become 3rd place! u take care of the baby, then your hubby and if u have any energy left u do what u need 2!

we still didnt have a car so we would take r stroller 2 the grocery store across the street and load up the bottom and her seat, as one of us would hold her walking home...we did what we needed 2, and we did it 2gether!

November 20th 2005 r 1st year being married was over, i was now 19, a wife 4 a year and a mother 2 our 1st born

The Night B4 r Wedding

So you've returned 4 more, well thank you haha..

So reading my 1st blog, its all about me and my hubby finding eachother and falling in love and *gag* rite..haha im kidding, it was all true BTW... but let me get into something a bit deeper, it wasnt all fun and games. The nite i told my sisters i was getting married, none of them supported me. 4 the 1st year of my marriage all i had was my mom, Bryan and suprisingly enough Amy (she eventually came around), well and of course my lil sister (but she was 8 did she have a choice?!). My dad and 2nd Sister Jennifer Showed up 2 Bryans moms house the night b4 the wedding, i knew he wasnt happy i was getting married on a whim, and well jen had her own wierd crazy "christian" and then "not so christian" reasons 2 try and stop us 4rm getting married....So here it goes....

My mom had came out 2 az 2 help get the wedding in order, i mean come on it was planned in less then a month, i needed all the help i could get! and we had just gotten bak from all the shopping, and were stopping by bryans moms house 2 get some stuff 2gether, we were doin a lil bachelorette party (yes i was 18, NO they didnt card me). well we get out of the car and me and bryan r standing there talking and all of a sudden, i c my dad and sister about ready 2 pull up.....ok hold on let me say this, although i knew bryan all those years he had met my dad maybe once or twice, but he didnt know how scarey that man could be.....so bak 2 my story i turn 2 bryan and tell him 2 go inside! and when he sees my dad getting out of that car he starts 2 turn around 2 go into the house but he wont leave my side, hes not sure if they're gonna throw me in a car and take off or what..so my dad like seriously jumps out of the car and is r faces in a matter of seconds! he tells bryan, "can we go sum where 2 talk", and my first thought was "o god is hes gonna kill him!" (ya u dont know my dad) well lets make this story short...my dad tells bryan "u end this, or i will end your life" and bryan refuses as im in the house screaming @ Jennifer telling her just 2 leave, that if they werent their 2 support me they needed 2 leave, my dad and bryan came bak in the house and we all went 2 war, US (my mom,me,bry,donna and theresa) vs MY DAD AND JEN! a screaming match i try hard 2 4get, becuz now looking bak it makes me wish id have come 2 some kind of agreement with them, just so my daddy could walk me down the isle...but this isnt a fairytale rite?! its reality and we dont always get what we want.........so brys mom threatens 2 call the cops (my dads on parole, wasnt even supposed 2 leave cali) and him and jen left and we went 2 "my last nite out as a single woman" and trust me we all got trashed...hey after the nite we had we needed it! (dont judge me) haha and  im sure u've realized we ended up getting married but i didnt hear from my dad or jen for months!

The Begining

1st of all Hi Im Christin Houston! well originally Christin Gonzales but sum wierdo bak in the day (who musta been a sexist) believed when u get married u take ur husbands name...so here i am a Houston now......(sexist bastard). I really would have liked 2 have kept the Gonzales, has alot more of a meaning 2 me then (says sarcastically) Houston! I mean come on my dad (r.i.p) gave me the last name, ya ya ya i know i had a choice, i coulda kept Gonzales but then Bryan, which btw is my husband woulda gotten all butt hurt and well we were in the "newly wed" stage and i didnt wanna do that 2 him, BUT give me the choice now and DAMN-IT id still b a Gonzales!!

Ok so moving on:

I am the 4th daughter of 5 girls, ive got 3 older sisters and 1 younger...poor child still stuck with that crazy women "they" call "MOM" (i'll get 2 that later) ANYWAYS my dad passed away August 16 2009, life completely changed after that (another story i'll get 2 later) <--- gotta keep u wanting 2 read rite?!

Moving On:

I met my Bryan when i was about 9, he was my oldest sister Amys Best friend Steves, friend. He used 2 bring Steve 2 r house all the time, i had the biggest crush on him. i WAS 9 come on, it was the smile when he'd look @ me and giggle when he'd talk 2 me, come 2 think of it as u read on not much changed! haha. so u get it right he was around 4 a long time he was my 1st crush and as time went on it never really went away. I even wrote about him in a diary when i was younger....(where is that diary) anyways where was i...let me bak track real quick and c where i was going with this.............
aww yes THEE day, i was 16 years old and i used 2 go 2 my sister amys house 2 party (dont judge me) and Bryan who BTW will b referred 2 as "shorty" thru alot of this. *giggles* (shorty) haha we havent called him that in years! but ok ok im gettin bak on track......

(partyin @ Amys) this stupid girl who shall remain nameless was talking 2 my sister and she was sayyin how she had just found out she was preggo and was gonna tell shorty it was his (which so was not his) ....well i wanst about 2 let that happen, THAT WAS MY SHORTY!, so i did what any pain in the butt would do, yup thats rite i TOLD SHORTY!. and well he wasnt 2 happy about that, he confronted her and she ran off crying *coughs*(cuz she was a whore) and me and "shorty" sat outside talking about life and all the things we wanted 4 life, turned out we had alot in common! after hours of sitting out under the stars with him and just shooting the shit.....(yes i cuss and i may cuss alot so dont read further if ur offended already!)  he told me 2 pinky promise him something and i leaned forward and told him "OK", he told me 2 pinky promise him the moment i turned 18 id marry him, so i did, we made that pinky promise. so we go inside and my sister refuses 2 let us sleep any where near each other, i slept on the floor with my friend and he slept on the couch, but when she (amy) went 2 bed i cuddled on the couch with him (hehe) but seriously we ONLY cuddled then i went bak on the floor b4 my sister woke up.... KEEP IN MIND I WAS 16! so life goes on rite, im doin my thing hes doin his..o BTW he was living in arizona when we made the promise and i was in cali, so like i said r lives went on and we'd see each other here and there @ Amys house, and 1 nite.............

                                                           Amy was having a "Suprise" party 4 her hubby Mark and i knew "shorty" was gonna b there so i had 2 go, me and him hung out the whole nite, and this nite was r very 1st kiss, it may have involved another girl, but who was keeping track rite?! (no im not a whore) she was my friend and we were all drinking and it just seemed like sumthing fun 2 do @ the time <----stupid me! but anywho i ended up leaving with him and we hung out @ san maritz lodge, in his car listening 2 music and talking then my mom pulled up and got me outta the car and nxt thing i remember i was @ my friends house...apparently i walked there O_o ?? ya sum 1st kiss ha! <-- o wasnt my FIRST 1ST kiss btw, and i dont know if i'll get that far into my life.....maybe :)

so time goes on and i mean i seriously saw him like 2 times a month if that sumtimes, but the crush never went away, i think the older i got and the more forbidden he got the more i wanted 2 b with him! YES forbidden by my sister Amy. "hes 2 old 4 u" "blah blah blah"  (hehe i just looked over @ him and smiled) So onto r 2nd kiss, and b4 i write this im gonna repeat NO I WASNT A HOOCHY!, ok now that we got that out of the way....i had taken my boyfriend @ the time Mikey (poor dude) 2 amys house, i didnt know shorty was gonna b there, well like i said shorty had his life i had mine (^^ hence the boyfriend @ the time) Mikey passed out and me and shorty sat outside talking and hanging out just like we always did, i always enjoyed talking 2 him, although i always made up stories, i guess i wanted 2 sound older...lil did i know those stories would b questioned 1 day while we were married...OOOPS <--stupid girl! so it was getting late and i told him "i better get inside b4 Mikey wakes up and sees how long ive been gone" so he grabs my arm towards him and kisses me...THEE BEST KISS EVER! and i giggled and sat down again, we talked about what r life would b like when we got married and the 16 kids we were gonna have and how we would never go 2 bed mad..o ps i was 17 by this time. so i tell him again "i needa go inside now" and he says and let me add he was slick as HELL "just 1 more kiss girl" so we kissed again, then i went and layed on the couch next 2 my poor stupid boyfriend who BTW was so clueless! and the way i layed me and shorty were able 2 hold hands while sleeping without any1 being able 2 c......Anyways the reason i was @ amys that time was 4 My niece Kaitis Bday in February. well b4 her party ended i ran up 2 shorty gave him a huge hug and a kiss on the cheek and asked him 4 his #, in my head i told myself there was no way i was letting him get away so easy this time............

we talked all the time after that. we talked about his life and my life and all the craziness in between it. o and BTW my whole family calls me Chubby (yes awful i know) so he used 2 call me chubby all the time and i called him shorty, we NEVER knew eachothers real names till October (8 mths since i gave him my #) <---ya apparently we didnt think about it! haha

well October 20th comes and im turning 18! i invited him 2 r traditional Olive Garden Dinner and he drove alllll the way 4rm AZ 2 spend it with me :) we flirted and he drove me bak 2 amys house and i had kaiti sleeping on the couch with me but it still didnt stop us from holding hands while we slept. So now im 18 rite what 2 do now.....nothing he went home and we kept talking on the phone, but........

 a couple days later (8) he asks me "if he paid 4 a ticket if id come and visit him in az" ,i was like heck ya i wasnt doin anything positive with my life y not rite?! so i flew out 2 him, this was the 1st time i was in "Bryans" world. the deal was id come and spend a cpl days with him and id go bak home easy enough rite?! so i land in az and my stomach is in knots and i c him and he jumps out and opens my door and gets my bag 4 me and is the sweetest man ive ever met in my life...he closes my door and gets into the front seat and leans over and gives me a kiss..*giggles* this was the 1st time i wasnt "chubby amys lil sister" and he wasnt "shorty the forbidden fruit" (yes i said fruit shut-up) we met up with his good friend Mikey (no not my Mikey DUH) and hung out...well we slept in the same bed and no we didnt do anything, i think we were both so nervous bout being with each other that we just couldnt even go there. in the morning he went 2 work and i got dressed and walked out 2 meet his mom, 1st thing i see is this lil lady (their a lil family, not midgets!! but short!) sitting on a chair in the kitchen smoking a cigarette and drinking coffee, i walk over with a huge smile on my face and say " hi mom" and she giggles and hugs me tight, she tells me "u know bryan always said he'd never get married unless it was 2 chubby and now i c y" i just kinda laughed it off and we started talking....i got there on a thursday nite, thats why bryan had 2 go 2 work that morning. but that nite we go 2 meet his sister Donna, (u might hear a couple not so nice stories about her in the future) and her family, it was so much fun, i loved those ppl, i fit in so well and his sister tells me "i always told bry he'd marry a girl with lil feet and look ur feet r tiny" hmmmm another "marry story" <----i didnt notice that then but i sure do now! haha ok day 2 gone, day 3 his sister goes MIA and we gotta find her, we end up @ a bar and sum how we ended up partying with her! haha but me and bryan r slow dancing (2 god only  know what song) and he whispers in my ear " how about u dont go home and u stay here and marry me" <---- slick rite!! i told him "yes" we kissed and then we left the bar and went bak 2 his moms,o ya did i mention he lived with his mom, he was helping raise his nefews, his sister Stephanie had passed away and his mom ended up with custody of these 2 boys....sad sad story( but maybe later)

 DAY 4 halloween 2004 we do the whole halloween thing and after its all said and done we sit down with his mom and sister and tell them im not going home, im gonna stay and marry bryan...they were shocked! but they were so excited 4 us..so planning the wedding began!

Day 5 (the day im supposed 2 go home) i call my mom 2 tell her im staying and im gonna marry him and she cried, i was always her favorite, it was always the hardest thing 4 her 2 let me go. but she supported me and said she would b there 4 me just give her the date.......

November 20th 2004 1 month after i turned 18 we got married

and so r journey began.....