every since my dad died, its like no1 cares about our family anymore, its so weird, and i miss them A LOT! its just not fair! and the more i think about it the more i get mad about it.
OK and so I've written, about my mother in law, and how i don't like the women, but she HAS always been there when i needed her, more then my own mother has, and shes always there 2 help us if we need it. and every Christmas, a couple days b4 Christmas, we go out 4 a cpl drinks after Christmas shopping, lots of fun and my kids get cool gifts cuz i always pick them :) but this year she calls 2 tell me, that we wont in fact be doing it this year because shes gonna b doing something with Byran's stupid sister Donna, i guarantee Donna made it so me and Theresa could not make our date, me and Donna have this "thing" where we don't like MOM hanging out with the other 1, and o man do i wish i had a normal sister in law, i WANT the hanging out, shopping, holiday cooking sister in law, but all i ended up with was a stupid, pathetic story 4 a person, i mean seriously she gets on my nerves, and i HATE the thought of being near her. i speak my mind and 4 Bryan's sake i keep my mouth shut when it comes 2 her, verrrry hard 2 do but i force myself 2 do it! UGH but anyways the whole thing just pisses me off that much more, i wanted 2 go shopping with mom...and now I've got no family and stupid holdays, trust me i force myself 2 decorate, i force myself 2 do Christmas things with the kids cuz its not there fault mommy's feeling like crap.
i kinda get it now, i get y my dad hated the holidays..isn't it amazing how u learn things the older u get..or how u understand things you never thought ud EVER understand...if i could go back 2 the stupid kid i was and know everything i know now, life would have been sooo different. i love my husband and kids, but LIFE could have been so different..